Sunday, March 27, 2011

I am so confused.
About everything.
I do not know what it means to be human.
Given the chance, a human will resort to their basic instincts, their primal urges, their basest desires.
They will forget all the lessons they have learned, forget all the experiences that have taught them to be a better person, they will just loose themselves in the moment. Loose themselves in the chance to scream and curse and berate and insult if that chance is ever offered. They bring up the most crude words and phrases and gestures that they know, ones that they know will cut to the quick, ones that can not be taken any other way. Slut, Cunt, Whore, Motherfucker, Bitch. They will scream at the top of their lungs and throw their hands over their heads, chanting these words as a defense and as a offense against the other party.

What is the point of being human? Are they supposed to be learning how to control their emotions? Are they supposed to have impulse control? Is that what it means? Humans. They take something natural and change it over and over again until the end result barely resembles what it started as. They destroy the environment and rebuild it again and again. They think they are god. They have built buildings to the sky, dug far into the earth, launched themselves past the realms of the atmosphere and dove to the very depths of the seas. What is the answer for their curiosity? What is it they are trying to achieve? What are they looking for? Will there ever be an answer for what it is to be human? For what it is they search so hard for. They have looked in all the places that they have thought to look in. They have answers for all the unanswerable questions. Yet no matter how hard they search for truth, for the answer, they will never be able to overcome their basic instincts. The ones that start disagreements, which start arguments, which start battles, which start wars. Wars will always separate people, separate minds, separate thoughts.

There are too many aspects to what it means to be human and live in a society with other people.
Homesteading looks really attractive right about now.

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